Be The Change You Want To See In This World

– Mahatma Gandhi

So yeah, I decided that, as I work with people and help them change their lives, based on what I have done so far, I asked myself how I could push myself to the next level and take yet big small step in my life.

I know that what I have done in my life works, and it works pretty frikkin well. I know what it is like to drastically change careers and lifestyles, I know how to basically re-invent your life from nothing. I have given up almost a lifetime of drugs in many different forms and self harming on all levels (physical, mental and emotional) is a fragment of a previous life. My health has radically changed, as have my eating habits and lifestyle and for almost 8 years now, I have learnt to live with severe bipolar depression without medication of any type. I know what it is like to follow your passion and do what you believe in despite what other people may, or may not, say and most importantly I believe that if I want to make a difference in other people’s lives, I have to start with my own.

So I was in a bit of a predicament to be honest with you, having realised what I had achieved. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever imagine being truly free on all levels – and for those that know me, they will understand this. Almost 10 years ago, I set myself a 10-day challenge, whereby I wanted to be able to get through 10 days feeling relatively “normal” and not having constant internal battles, outbreaks at myself, no drugs, no shit generally. I undertook this on my own at that time, and let me tell you, it was only 3 years later that I managed to get through my first 10 days. One by one, I began mastering each particular challenge of mine, and I got to the place where I am today which, to be fucking honest with you, has surpassed anything I could ever have dreamt of and I now truly believe that I can achieve anything I set my mind to, as long as it is in line with my purpose and desire in life.

And there I was. Ready to take the next step and I began thinking. My business partner and I are about to launch Ego Invenio – our amazing experiential program that is frikkin awesome. Having both achieved our levels of mastery in our specific areas of expertise, we are deeply passionate about what we do for one reason. We know it works because we have tested it and tested it and tested it, over and over again on ourselves. We have the results in our lives that we know will change your life.

So I decided to set myself a challenge. Based on our unique 9-step program, amongst other things that we do, I am about to go outside and smoke my last cigarette – something that I have been doing for almost 25 years now. Over the years, I have given up drinking almost 2 bottles of vodka a day, I have given up cocaine and taking almost 50 painkillers a day, I have gone from starving myself for days on end to a healthy diet and actually gaining and keeping weight for the first time in my life, so to say that I know a little bit about working with addicts is something pretty accurate. Yet this final addiction of mine has been challenging me somewhat, until now.

Honesty is a huge value of mine, and for me to go out there and do what I want to do, I need to be our message. I need to be the change that I wish for people in their lives so this is my next challenge.

I will keep you update of the progress, and at the same time, be sure to follow us on Facebook as we prepare for our launch very shortly. We have some amazing stuff lined up and we know that you are all very excited. Ego Invenio looks set to be an amazing life changing experience and yeah, to know that in a few minutes, I am going to be taking on my final “test” to see that everything works is pretty cool !!!

Over the last few years, having previously lived my life with the belief that you get what is set for you when you are born, I have become a firm believer in the fact that you create your own destiny. I read a book some time ago called “The Luck Factor” by Dr. Richard Wiseman, that had particular influence  on the way I began to create my outcomes. Combined with learning’s that I got from many other books, I began to do some pretty cool shit so I thought that today, I would share a few simple things that you can do which will have a huge impact on the results you get.

1.    Before you begin a journey, it is always a great idea to get some idea of where you would like to go. Brainstorm or draw up a mind map of what you want in all areas of your life. This gives you something on which to focus, and the more you focus on it and refine it, the clearer you become on your intentions for you life.

2.    One of the greatest things that we can build our lives on is a solid foundation – a healthy mind, body and soul. Daily meditation is one of the simplest and easiest things that we can do. It helps us to quieten our thoughts and focus just on ourselves. Make it a habit to do this twice a day – morning and night. Use this time to let everything go and before you do it, take a look at your mind map of the journey you want to take. This plants the seeds deep in your mind and it is in the moments of silence that we receive huge clarity.

3.    Having a healthy and quiet mind is one thing, but being physically healthy is something else equally as important. Start by doing some sort of detox or cleanse to rid your body of “stuff” you have been carrying around with you. Why start a journey with bad luggage you could say. Exercise regularly and employ good eating habits.

4.    Deepak Chopra says something along the lines of “everything is unknown because we are constantly creating in our lives.” It is not positive thinking alone that “makes” the universe create your every desire, but creative thinking that truly opens up all possibilities.

5.    It is your intention and what you pay attention to that gives you your life. When you put your attention on negative past feelings and beliefs, no matter how hard you try, you will keep experiencing  them. Think about how many crap movies you have watched in your life – have you let those influence the movies you choose to watch and enjoy now, or did you just laugh and forget about the?

6.    Whenever you feel any kind of dis-ease (anger, jealousy, sadness, fear, etc.), stop and acknowledge the feeling for what it is without creating a story about it. Then keep your attention on the restriction that is has on you and just breathe into it. Just breathing and being with the feeling allows it to complete itself for you to get what you need to get – this is a natural law in that what we resist, persists, yet when we allow the feeling its place, it can complete the cycle.

7.    Create a “Board of Directors” for your life, and “consult” them whenever you want to. Tap into the universal abundance of thought and creativity. Some of my “Board Members” are Jesus, Richard Branson, Lance Armstrong, Madonna and Adam Lambert. When I am faced with decisions or choices, I meditate and sit down with them and ask them what they would do and it is amazing what happens when you listen to your heart from a genuinely quiet place.

8.    ALWAYS start and finish your day with a does of gratitude. This makes you realise how much you have and keeps you in a state of centered awareness. Intention is so much more powerful when it comes from a place of gratitude and peace rather than from lack or need. It all gives you strength and faith to not be influenced by other people’s doubt or criticisms, because your higher self knows that everything is and will be alright, even without knowing the details of what is going to happen.

9.    Before you go to sleep at night, take a few minutes to replay the events of the day gone by, kind of like a movie in your mind, and just like the movies you watched in the past, keep the pieces that you need to keep and trash the rest. You know the journey your are undertaking, and this increases awareness of how you are actually being in the world and alerts you to any changes or distinctions you may want to make.

Always remember that you are special, believe in yourself and go out into the world and pursue your dreams. Hopefully these steps will guides toward creating whatever it is what you choose.

Amazingly enough (or considering we create whatever happens to us) a close friend (let’s call him Yogi Bear for now) came to me while I was writing this and shared about something he watched. I listened in silent gratitude and after watching it, thought that it was an amazing way to end of this post. Madonna is, and always has been, a huge influence in my life. Never one to be ashamed of completely reinventing her life, her work gave me the courage to be the authentic person I always wanted to be.

“Dance like nobody’s watching; love like you’ve never been hurt. Sing like nobody’s listening; live like it’s heaven on earth.”
Mark Twain

I think that Mr. Twain was a pretty wise dude you know. He said some really cool things and this, by far, is one of my favorite sayings and one that I truly make every effort to live my life by.

I am by no means a person who believes in selfconfidence, and in my opinion, I don’t think that there is such a thing – kind of conentious (sp) one might say. But what I do believe in, and if you are a follower of my blogs I kind of touched on this in my last posting, is self assurance – which I think is a very big difference.

You see, at the end of the day, the only opinion that really counts in my life of myself is mine. Selfish as that might sound, I guess you could say it opens up the possibilities to appreciating everybody in my life that much more, because they have every right to their own opinions, their own feeling and their own actions. I can’t change them but I can accept them as they are, which make you all very special in my life because each and every one of you that live my life with me play an integral part in who I am today. Without knowing you, or meeting you and speaking to you, there is no way I could have ever accepted myself for who I am every single day.

I love to sing – a lot !! And I love to dance – even more. And I believe that I can make my own heaven each and every day of my life (why should I wait until I am dead to get there when I can choose it every day?) So I thought – what is something simple and small that would scare me a lot and really push my buttons? And I came up with it. Me, singing for every one to see, on camera – captured for all eternity, or for as long as I choose it to be public knowledge.

So today, I did just that. I sang like nobody was listening and I danced liked nobody was watching. And why? Just because I could and just because I thought it would be something crazy and fun to do. Some people will like it, some people will laugh and some people will think it is just plain silly. But it was a lot of fun and the words were pretty cool too !

Today, why don’t you do something small that really pushes your buttons. Don’t worry what anyone else thinks – just get out there and be yourself. It frikkin rocks man !!!

My Mom has the most amazing intuition in the world – a gift I clearly now realise that I got from her. Due to the distance apart that we are, and that fact that phone systems in Zimbabwe are pretty messed up, I don’t get to speak to her much, but she knows just when to send the right type of mail across the world to me.

As you may know from my previous post, some pretty big shit has shifted in my head, and I have had a few days of rather intense and vivid dreams, as well as some very “unrestful” sleep – in fact, A LOT of unrestful sleep. My body is physically drained yet my mind is raring to go, possibly explaining all the dreams. I am going with the flow of it all and taking things one day at a time at the moment. I am putting plans in place and taking steps towards creating the dream that I once thought was just that – a dream. And then there are some areas that are not without their challenges, and those I am working in too. It is very difficult when other people’s emotions are involved, and all I can do is be me, open and honest about everything I guess.

So this came from my Mom at exactly the right time. It summed up a lot of what has happened over the last 2 years of intense work on myself, and you know what, I have (as have you) probably read it in the past, but this time it really sunk in and I feel obligated to share it with you all.

Maybe…
we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that,
when we finally meet the right person,
we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Maybe…
it is true that we don’t know what we have until we lose it,
but it is also true that we don’t know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Maybe…
the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past;
after all, you can’t go on successfully in life
until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Maybe…
you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet,
enough trials to make you strong,
enough sorrow to keep you human,
and enough hope to make you happy.

Maybe…
the happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything;
they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Maybe…
the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you’ve ever had.

Maybe…
happiness waits for all those who cry,
all those who hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried,
for only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.

Maybe…
you should do something nice for someone every single day,
even if it is simply to leave them alone.

Maybe…
giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back.
Don’t expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart;
but, if it doesn’t, be content that it grew in yours.

Maybe…
you should dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go,  be what you want to be,
because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of,
and want to do.

Life is only travelled ONCE;
Today’s MOMENT becomes Tomorrow’s MEMORY.
Enjoy every moment, good or bad, because the GIFT of LIFE… is LIFE itself…

EGO INVENIO my friends ! The journey to the heart of knowing yourself is one of the MOST rewarding journeys you will ever undertake. By no means the easiest, but by all means the most rewarding.

So, I started writing a blog and then heard some more news. I let the shock set in, I took some time out to cry (and swear) a lot and I took a deep breath and listened to my heart, which has been speaking to me quite a bit lately. For some strange reason, this time around, my fucking head would not answer back and that was when I knew that maybe, I had finally listened to the message that I was being given.

Today I had the news that 2 people I knew, one very well, had died. The first young lady was sadly killed by a lion back home and the 2nd young lady died this morning really suddenly. Both of them were amazing people, they truly were but you know what was even more special about them. EVERY SINGLE day they got to do what they were passionate about. One worked in an animal orphanage, and the other worked as a teacher of small children. They loved what they did and they got to do it each and every day of their lives.

Keziah, the girl who died this morning was very special to me. You see, some time back, as you know, I was pretty fucked up. She was one of the first people I spoke to about some stuff that was going on back then and she gave me a book to read the changed my life. It was called The Cross and The Swicthblade about this minister who worked with heroin addicts on the streets in America. He never gave up on them and his ministry still goes today around the world. That book made me see that I was not going mad and that the dreams and visions I had for the future were possible. She always believed in me and whenever I spoke to her, she always inspired me and now she has gone to a place she strongly believed in.

You see, I don’t know if I speak for you, but I know that for me, I have some pretty big dreams that I want to achieve in my life. Because of my own fears and limitations that I have placed on myself, I guess you could say I have always come up with excuses and the like.

Until today !

How many signs and messages do we need to get before we actually take some specific sort of action towards what we want to do ? Life is short guys, it really is. I know that there was a time in my life where I hated everything going on and when I just wanted to be dead. Call it extreme but I know that there are people out there who know what I am talking about. I tried to end my life a few times, and in doing so, I hurt a lot of people but none more than I hurt myself. It has taken me many years to accept who I am and to truly love the person that I am every day now, realising how lucky I am to be alive and living now.

So, I am taking some action and this is where you come in because I need some help from you. It will be my birthday in August and before then, I intend to stand up and speak. I can’t teach you about internet marketing, and I can’t teach you about trading and fitness but what I can tell you is my story and how to be authentic and true to who you are. I can share with you from the heart what I have learnt in my life, in the hope that it will change your life in one way or another.

Fuck me, it is scarry writing this stuff, but these 2 friends of mine have shown me something truly special in life, and I believe that I can now share what I know with the people who are reading this and ready to listen.

I have some dates lined up and depending on the interest that is shown, Iguess that is how it goes. It will be towards the end of July, early-August and will be in the evening after work for a few hours. There will be a small charge to cover the costs of organising it, part of the proceeds of this will also go to The Gorilla Organisation, a charity that is very very close to my heart in all that i do, but it will be small.

If you are interested, please contact me via Facebook or by email on mycoachguy@yahoo.com and I will keep you informed, and if you can, please pass this on to your friends and family.

It’s my dream and I believe in it, so please support me in taking this HUGE step forwards, and remember, maket he most of everything because you never know what is going to happen next.

As you know, the last few days were a little tough so I have been rather focused (or should I say, more focused than I normally would) on what I envisage for my own life, as well as for the lives of those that are important to me. I find that during the crap times, as hard as it can be, turning my focus to the bigger picture allows me to “get out of the pit.” So knowing that this has worked very well for me in the past, that is what I did.

I l0oked up instead of looking around and down and it really helped.

I took some (more) time out to reflect on my journey so far – it always reminds me of how much things have changed for me and it makes me see the growth that has taken place. I remembered the times in the past when I thought that things would never get better, because that was all I knew how to think – you know those times when things happen and you have no frikkin idea how they could change. Yup, I remembered those times because it showed me that I got through.

I then took some time out to think about my passion in life. What is it that makes me get up each and every morning, because let’s face it, if you do not have something to wake up to, then what is the point of getting out of bed. Regardless of what you do, why do you do it ? For some people, it may just be getting through the day to the next pay day, for other people, it may be because they have some sort of obligation or commitment to something. But for me, it is because I have a plan. A plan that makes me scared and excited all at the same time. One that makes me think of the bigger picture, rather than my own secluded world. Something that ignites the flame of passion inside of me. So I did some writing, I did some strategic planning and I made some important conversations that resulted in my decisions for my life being confirmed.

In short, I re-connected with my passion and desire for my own life, no matter how huge or grand it seemed. To the extent that I even got someone to make an enquiry to find out how much it would cost to hire out a rather large venue as well as sending some emails to find out about some further studying that I would like to do.

It helped a fuck load I tell you, because it reminded me that without my passion in my life, there would be nothing to get out of bed for. And some years ago, that passion was not there and even though there was so much going for me, without knowing my passion, I did not see the point. And that is pretty cool because I personally know a lot of people who want to do things but they are just not sure what it is that they want to do.

Take some time out to connect with your passion. Listen to the music that makes you cry when you hear it and ask yourself why it does that to you. There will always be a clue. Look around at the world going by and put yourself in other people’s shoes to see if you can come up with what their passion in. That way, you will open your mind to something that makes you want to fly. You will open your mind to a whole new world or opportunity and discovery.

I did. I opened that door a little wider and let out a little more, and I know that, despite the challenges that come my way and try to get me back, the door is open and the passion is out and it ain’t fucking going nowhere mate !

Today, internally, I had a seriously challenging day, I really did. Part of me is ashamed to admit that I allowed it to show more than I normally would – and that kind of hurts me to admit because I like to think that I am as authentic and honest as I can be these days in my life. I woke up this morning feeling somewhat off course and I mentally prepared myself to deal with this – something that I have learnt to deal with in the past and something I have been working on intensely.Taking care not to be hard on myself this time around, I began my day with an extra dose of gratitude for breakfast, something that always has amazing power in lifting the feelings, and thankfully I feast on this regularly because it helped.

Just over 2 months has passed since I had one of those issues that I have learnt to live with, and for some of my life, I actually physically denied that I had a problem with bipolar depression, having been told that it is based on decisions and thoughts and patterns and so on, so accepting this has also challenged me, as some of you who follow this blog may be aware of. It hurts me so much when people say that being bipolar is allowing yourself to be labelled, or that something is wrong with your thought and belief process. Yes, I agree that there is definately an element of this involved, because we can allow ourselves to become victims to everything. But sometimes, when you have had some awesome times, when you have put your head down on the pillow with every great intention to have an awesome day tomorrow and when you have claimed back your own power, it can be very trying and frustrating to wake up feeling this way. And over and above that, it is rather tiring because every action you take becomes a very real and life-saving effort. That is probably the easiest way for me to describe it – imagine not having slept for a week, not having eaten properly and then being asked to run a marthon, however, you have been resting and taking care of yourself, you have been training and you have been doing what you should be doing. It frustrates the fuck out of me to be blunt.

I know that I have the power to turn this around but more importantly, I know that I have the power and the strength and conviction to live with this and be an example to others who don’t know how to do it. So yes, when it showed today, for a few moments, I chose to feel hurt that I had let it out. It also made me choose to feel hurt when someone I deeply care about challenged my thoughts and decisions even when they knew, to an extent, how this happens without me asking. And I allowed myself to put walls up again – something I don’t like to do but I guess you could say, the usual defence mechanism kicked in and that is what happens – this little army of builder’s frantically run around putting up the heavy walls so that it all stays inside.Maybe it showed, maybe it didn’t but it reminded me why I do what I do with my life and it kept me going because of what I know I am going to do one day.

And over and above that I still made sure that I fed myself properly today, I still made sure that I put my heart into my work even though the mind was just going through the motions, and as difficult as it was, I allowed myself to feel every single emotion, as raw and painful as it was.

This isn’t something I decided one day to have in my life. This is not something that I would ask for my worst enemy to go through and this isn’t something that I like. One of my favourite books of all time is the Bible. I personally believe that it is an amazing story with some of the most powerful messages ever written in it. It has kept me going during dark days, when all I have wanted to do is run away, and it has given me some amazing inspiration for who I am today and who I strive to be in my life. There is a quote that always comes to my own mind when I go through dark patches like today and I would like to share it with you: -

“To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a THORN IN MY FLESH, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”
2 Corinthians 12:7-10

And in my own words, if this is the challenge that I have been given in my life, then whoever is out there looking after me knows that I am strong enough to deal with this. He knows that we have what it takes to get through anything, and in doing so, he knows that we have what it takes to make a difference to other’s who may have a similar thorn but do not know how to deal with it.

Fuck me mate, I used to struggle with this – working and working and working on things for hours on end, ensuring that I had every single little piece of information in the correct place,  neatly laid out and just right. I found that I was always “up against it” despite receiving great results once the work had been submitted and in my head, I was telling myself how things could have been different or better. I always wanted things to be so correct that it go to the point where I knew I had to do something about it.

I slowly began working on it all, and came up with what saved me from hours of agony, and at the same time, gave me so much more free time it was pretty cool. I therefore thought that I would share them with you to share with people who you know could benefit from following these simple steps if they choose to !

1. Acknowledge where you already are

In striving for perfection in everything that you do, acknowledge that you are already in the top percentage of the world who set out to do things. Your basic planning on a small event would be the same as everyone else planning and strategizing for months on end. Be aware of what you already do and know that it is more than what most people set out to do.

2. Prioritise

Establish what your priorities are and get clear about what they are to you. Making lists helps to see what needs to be done first, but will also help you to see that there are not enough hours in the day to do the things you may think you can. There is that quote that goes something like “we often over-estimate what we can do in a day but totally under-estimate what we can do in a life time”

3. Be Realistic

Set yourself realistic expectations as to what you want to achieve. Know that there are many other obligations that you currently have in your life such as spending time with family and friends, basic health requirements and most importantly, rest and relaxation. If you have a large project in mind, break it down into bite sized chunks, and this can also be covered under prioritizing things as well.

4. Learn

What better way to learn than to allow yourself to make mistakes. If we never make mistakes, how the hell are we ever going to learn because as you know, mistakes are nothing more than lessons and learnings. The only way to get anything “perfect” is to make the mistakes that we need to make – once you have done them once, you know not to do them again in the future. This for me was possibly one of the most challenging things I needed to get through to my head as a perfectionist, but once I realised how important it was, things became a lot easier to work on and handle.

5. Celebrate

Every single time you complete a task without spending ages double and triple checking it. Every single time you successfully complete a project on time and hand it over without questioning yourself. But most importantly, every single time you make mistakes and create new learnings for yourself.

6. Allow room for growth

Realise that in our striving for perfection in all that we do, how will we ever improve when we achieve that perceived perfection? Instead, focus on how tomorrow can be better than the amazing day we had today, regardless of what happened.

7. Nobody expects you to be perfect except yourself

Recognize that no one ever expects you to be perfect all of the time, and most of the time whilst we waste time striving for that, people are already extremely happy with us the way that we are. Another significant point to remember is that no matter what we do, other people’s perception of us will always be changing. And finally, there is no way that we will ever be able to please everyone, so we do what we do to the best of our ability, allowing room for growth and learning, and that is that !

8. Plan ahead

Schedule time to correct “learnings” before you hit your deadlines. What can be done, can be un-done or re-done, given enough time.

9. Value your work

Value quality of work on time vs. perfect work late. Sometimes our mediocre work is really much better than we think it is, only because we know what we can do, given the extra time. Stick to your time limits and look at what you did do as good and don’t get caught up thinking about what you could have done.

10. Ask for help

Learn to ask for help from those around you – there is nothing wrong with reaching out to other people and this, in fact, is a strength and trait that many people are too afraid to own. Until recently, I always thought that I had to do everything on my own (yup, pretty crazy I know) but I learnt that it takes a team to make a dream and that is what I had to do.

It’s been a while since I wrote something and to be honest, there is no excuse for it really – I  guess you could say that I was keeping myself inside of my comfort zone. Work has been really busy with some awesome events taking place, and I had the chance to work with an amazing team at the last one – they really showed me what it meant to be a part of something that has a huge impact on the lives of people.

Throughout that weekend, I personally had a few rather large breakthroughs in terms of what I want to do with my life, and that has always been something that I have generally kept to myself. My “dream” of changing the world has never left my heart as the years have gone by and it has been with me for some time. If anything, it is what has kept me working so damn fucking hard on myself. Yet there has always been that part of me that has been truly scared to openly share it with people and I often asked myself why this was. If I am so passionate about it, then why do I not share it with people.

In the past, I used to set rather large goals for myself, knowing that I would not be able to achieve them, which then gave me all sorts of excuses to keep me inside of my comfort zone. It kept me safe and it protected me, yet at the same time, it hurt me a lot. As the years went by, and as the results of my studying and learning and growing began to show in my life, all of a sudden I found that some of these goals were now being achieved. At first it was rather frightening if I am to be honest, so I stopped doing it, just in case !!!

I never believed that I would be able to radically change careers, so that was also an excuse that held me back, until one day, fed up with being fed up, the universe or God or whatever you call it, stepped in and helped me out, and today I can proudly say that I have left behind that old career and now, every day, I get to work on stuff that does not even feel like work. And you know what, that inspired me to start speaking out slowly but surely about my big dream.

I noticed that I was meeting different people and having totally different conversations. I was acting more like the person I was born to be, and it felt fucking great to be honest – scary, but great nonetheless. And then one day the topic turned to what I would most like to do, and it was then that I thought “you know what, fuck what anyone thinks because this is my dream and if it is that important to me, then it is up to me and only me to speak about it” and I mentioned it. The result shocked me really, because upon sharing it, I saw the person’s eyes light up – it turns out that part of their big dream was very very similar to mine and that was pretty cool.

Today, I had the opportunity to physically sit down and speak about what I want to do. My heart was pounding like you have no idea, my mouth was going dry and my hands were sweating, but it was OK. In fact, it was more than OK. It was frikkin liberating mate. I had shared a part of my “baby” with someone and unlike in the past when I was told that I was a little crazy to think like that, someone else was excited about it and excited about getting involved. For the first time, I let someone walk away with a piece of my dream, to add their stuff to it and to begin to make it a reality. And then I did what I always do – I went to the toilet and cried.

It felt so good to know that something special has been born. Even as I write now, my heart beats faster in anticipation, looking forward to “changing the world” in some cool way. I know there is much hard work ahead, but to actually see things now in motion that have been buried for so many years is well worth it.

My advice to you, and my advice to myself more importantly is to step out of that comfort zone. Say what you want to say about what you want to do, and who cares what other people think or say. It’s yours and only you have the right to decide whether or not you can make it a reality. There is someone closer than you think who is going to help you achieve that, and in the last few weeks, I have totally seen that and accepted it.

You know, of late I have been receiving a few comments and emails about the things that I write and the things that I say and I do. And to be totally honest with you, they sometimes come as a bit of a shock because I still fight with having that self-belief in my work – may sound strange but like I always say to you, I am not gonna bullshit you here or anything so this is the truth from my heart. I used to think that my words were just waffle, but I am now beginning to see that they make sense to people so thank you for helping me to see what you already see – it is pretty cool.

Yesterday, I received 2 extremely personal emails that truly touched my heart – one from a colleague that I have worked closely with in Dublin, that I have seen grow and break though so many barriers in courses we have done together and some I consider a very special person in my life who I would even jump out of a box naked for. The other is an amazing young lady that I met whilst working for charity at a festival last year – we had an immeadiate and amazing connection, and even though I have not kept in physcial contact, that bond was pretty strong and I often wondered why – until I read her message last night that touched me again, very deeply. There are so many others that have come my way, but these latest 2 have made me reflect on some stuff and made me understand why “M” in My Coach Guy is so amazing powerful.

Why do you do what you do ? These are my Top 5 Reason why I do what I do : -

1) For years, I did a job that was not my passion at all. Yes, I was good at it and yes, there was a lot of enjoyment out of it as well. I got to work on some amazing construction projects back home, as well as over here when I came to live here and it has given me some valuable tools to apply for life. But every single day, I lied to myself because my heart was not in my work. Today, I get to work in an industry that inspires me and pushes me all the time, and I know that what I do impacts a lot of people, therefore, work is  no longer work. Work is a pleasure and something I look forward to most of the time.

2) I am constantly learning, and that is very important to me. I get to learn new things every day, new ways to do stuff, new events to prepare for, new people to meet, new challenges to take on. I like learning so it is pretty cool that I get to do this.

3) I have met some pretty frikkin amazing people and people that I never thought I would be friends with as well if I am honest – again, boils down to that self-belief shit I guess. Last week, after 2 events, I had the opportunity to sit at the dinner table with 2 of the trainer’s we work with, speaking purely about nonsense. For me, it was kind of surreal to be in this situation because it “only happened to everyone else” in my life and here it was happening to me. These 2 guys have been instrumental in my development so far, and to be able to call them friends is wicked.

4) I have big dreams that involve changing the world basically, and to be somewhere that I know is taking me in that direction rocks. I never used to dream, I never used to wish and there was a time that all I wanted to do was die because I felt like all I was doing was hurting the people I loved the most. To be alive today and to have the chance to share those dreams with them is sometimes very challenging, but at the same time, because I share honestly with them about what I want to do, it inspires me to keep going. My family (Bean, Da, Sav, Mom and Ke) are part of the reason I do what I do because despite what I have put these 5 people through, they still love me for who I am and for that I thank them by doing this – they don’t expect me to do it, I know that, but they believe that I could do if I really wanted to, so therefore I do.

5) And the final reason I do what I do is for me. It has taught me to love myself and look after myself. It has been my way of speaking when I am a bit nervous to speak to people. It has shown me that is Ok to be honest about everything, which is very important to me. It has shown me my own personal growth and development. It is a tribute of thanks to some amazing people, you included. It basically is me, and for once in my life, I want to do things for me.